Hit a wall

Well, I hit a wall in the whole "getting published" thing.  I'm working on a query and a "marketing" essay question answer.  I just can't concentrate and work on it.  Why?  Because I'm trying to get my Shadow Priest to level 85 in Wow, of course!

I was thinking; I don't think I realize how fat I am.  It's like it sneaked up on me.  We were talking to someone today who said she'd lost 50 pounds and was now just under 200 lbs.  That puts her a dozen or so pounds heavier than I, but if I look like she does, someone needs to put me out of my misery.  I don't think I look THAT fat...or do I?  Maybe I just don't realize how big I am.  In my mind, I'm still the 150 lbs I was when I worked at NAC (and thought I was fat then).  And it's not just the way I look that bothers me.  I really feel like I can't do anything.  Going up stairs is really hard.  At my cousin's house on the Fourth of July, I was trying to climb up onto the trampoline and my legs just wouldn't move.  I was willing my left leg to go up onto the springs, but it wouldn't.  I felt like a 'tard, mainly because my sister and her boyfriend had successfully made it into the trampoline with no problems.

Now with my tendonitis in my hand and shoulder, it makes me extra retarded trying to do stuff.  I noticed the other day when I was washing dishes that my hands get tired really easily and my right hand (the one with tendonitis) can't hold anything right.  I guess I am getting old, but I find it hard to believe that my chronic tendonitis, muscle weakness, eczema, weight gain, and all my hormonal problems aren't associated some how.

Oh, someday I'll have health insurance and find a doctor who will try to figure out what's wrong with me.  My health insurance from Home Nursing should kick in around September.  Thankfully, I think on August 1 our vision insurance will be active.  Chris really needs to get his eyes checked and get new glasses.  I wouldn't mind having some new glasses as well.

I always find cute frames, ok?  I try them on, they look cute.  But my eyes are so bad, that the lenses make my eyes look tiny and suddenly, I'm not so cute anymore.  Blah.